Sunday Tough Love on Me; May 30, 2021

Even for the crazy stuff I've been through, I'm thankful.  

It's been hard and I've probably have made some mistakes, but it is what it is.  I can't go back and re-do them over.

I've learned who is willing to invest and step up and take the time to help and support, and who won't take the time even though I've been taking an emotional beating.

However, the bottom line is:  I have to take care of me - and my daughter.

A community member reminded me of that on the Saturday morning of the Miles For Meals 5K and 10K in Conroe early last month.  

He said it very bluntly and very strongly and I'm thankful for his genuineness and honesty.

If I have blocked, unfriended, unfollowed or quit communicating with you, I'm sorry.  Please forgive me when you're able to.  If you don't, I understand that too and I forgive you.

I will meet and discuss anything with anybody, but it cannot be one-sided.  I just won't do it.  You've got to give as much as you get.

I've given until it hurts, and then some.

I have nothing left.

I would love to know the intent of the actions against me or the reasons why, but everything I've read is that likely will never happen.

I will never believe that they are all just coincidences or that I'm making all of this stuff up.

I will keep pressing on whether there are people who are genuinely in my corner or not, but if you see me getting the emotional shit getting kicked out of me and you do nothing stay away from me ... you're not my friend.

Water vs. No Soda

05/28/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 

05/27/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew Zero (7-11) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/26/21 - (60/44) - Two 20 oz. glasses of Diet Coke (Mod Pizza) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/25/21 - (52/44) - 32 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Speedy Stop) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
05/24/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/23/21 - (20/92) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 48 oz. unsweet tea (Eva's) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/22/21 - (32/124.9) - 32 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Buc-ee's) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (Buc-ee's) - 16.9 oz. bottle of water (Newman's) - 60 oz. of unsweet tea (Cheesecake Factory)

05/21/21 - (60/44) - two 20 oz. bottles of Diet Coke (HEB) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
05/20/21 - (52/44) - 32 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Circle K) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/19/21 - (40/44) - two 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/18/21 - (44/44) - 44 oz. unsweet tea - 44 oz. Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
05/17/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/16/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/15/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/14/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper (HEB) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/13/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper (HEB) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
05/12/21 - (52/44) - 32 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Speedy Stop) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
05/11/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper (HEB) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/10/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper (HEB) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
05/09/21 - (40/44) - Two 20 oz. cups of Diet Coke (JCI) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/08/21 - 32 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Buc-ee's) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/07/21 - (40/60.9) - 16.9 bottle of water - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
05/06/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 20 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 

05/05/21 - (52/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 32 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Speedy Stop) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/04/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

05/03/21 - (40/84) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) - 40 oz. of unsweet tea (Raising Cane's)

05/02/21 - Unknown
05/01/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/30/21 - (20/84) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) - 40 oz. unsweet tea (MOD Pizza)

04/29/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/28/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/27/21 - (0/44) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/26/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/25/21 - (52/94) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 32 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Buc-ee's) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (Buc-ee's) - 50 oz. of unsweet tea (Eva's; 2.5 glasses)
04/24/21 - (32/82.9) - 32 oz. of Mountain Dew (Buc-ee's) - 16.9 oz. of bottled water - 66 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/23/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/22/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/21/21 - (20/64) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 20 oz. of bottled water - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/20/21 - (0/64) - 20 oz. of bottled water - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/19/21 - (20/64) - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Circle K) - 20 oz. of bottled water - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/18/21 - (20/84) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (AM) - 40 oz. unsweet tea (MOD Pizza) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
04/17/21 - (0/88) - two 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/16/21 - (0/84) - 40 oz. of bottled water - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/15/21 - (0/80.9) - 36.9 oz. of bottled water - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/14/21 - (32/60.9) - 32 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 16.9 oz. bottled water - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/13/21 - (60/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - two 20 oz. cups of Diet Coke (JCI) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
04/12/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (AM) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/11/21 - (84/0) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (AM) - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (Whataburger) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB)

04/10/21 - (40/50) - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Buc-ee's) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (PM) - large amounts (50 oz.) of unsweet tea at Smitty's.
04/09/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
04/08/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/07/21 - (20/64) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 20 oz. of bottled water - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/06/21 - (84/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 32 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Speedy Stop) - 32 oz. cup of Diet Coke (Speedy Stop) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/05/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Circle K) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
04/04/21 - (40/88) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (Circle K/Timewise) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger; twice)
04/03/21 - (40/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (7-11) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

04/02/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
04/01/21 - (40/64) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Circle K) - 20 oz. of bottled water - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
03/31/21 - (20/44) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

03/30/21 - (20/64) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 20 oz. of bottled water - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

03/29/21 - (20/64) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 20 oz. of bottled water - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

03/28/21
03/27/21
03/26/21 - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Circle K) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
03/25/21 - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Circle K) - 42.2 oz. bottle of Diet Coke - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
03/24/21 - 16.9 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. Diet Coke (large Whataburger)

03/23/21 - 16.9 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (two) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 

03/22/21 - 16.9 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (two) - 32 oz. cup of Diet Coke (Circle K) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 

03/21/21 - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (Whataburger)

03/20/21 - 
03/19/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Circle K) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) - 16.9 oz. of water

03/18/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 

03/17/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) - 16.9 oz. of water
03/16/21 - 32 oz. of Mountain Dew (Speedy Stop) - 44 oz. of unsweetened tea (large Whataburger) - 40 oz. of unsweetened tea (JCI)

03/15/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
03/14/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) - copious amounts of unsweet tea (Eva's Mexican)
03/13/21 - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew (Circle K) - two (2) 44 oz. Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
03/12/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
03/11/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
03/10/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

03/09/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
03/08/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
03/07/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
03/06/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) - Multiple glasses of unsweet tea at Cheesecake Factory 

03/05/21 -

03/04/21 -
03/03/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
03/02/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
03/01/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper (Circle K) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
02/28/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) - 20 oz. unsweet tea (Raising Cane's)
02/27/21 -
02/26/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (Speedy Stop) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (HEB) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
02/25/21 - 32 oz. of Diet Coke (McDonald's) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 16.9 oz. bottle of water
02/24/21 - 32 oz. of Diet Coke (McDonald's) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke - 16.9 oz. bottle of water

02/23/21 - 32 oz. of Diet Coke (McDonald's) - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke
02/22/21 - 32 oz. of Diet Coke (McDonald's) - 32 oz.of Diet Coke (Circle K)
02/21/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 48 oz. of Mountain Drew (Freddy's) - 16.9 oz. bottle of water
02/20/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke (Buc-ee's) - 18.5 oz. of Pure Leaf unsweetened tea
02/19/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
02/18/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
02/17/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew and 20 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper
02/16/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew and 20 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper
02/15/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice)
02/14/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

02/13/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

02/12/21 - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
02/11/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

02/10/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

02/09/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

02/08/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

02/07/21 -
02/06/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
02/05/21 - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
02/04/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
02/03/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
02/02/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
02/01/21 - Nothing - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)
01/31/21 - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Circle K and 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

01/30/21 - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Circle K - two 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)

01/29/21 - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Speedy Stop - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)  

01/28/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 
01/27/21 - Nothing - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 
01/26/21 - Nothing - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) and 1.5 liters of bottled water
01/25/21 - Nothing - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) and 0.5 liters of bottled water
01/24/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 

01/23/21 - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Speedy Stop and Circle K - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)  

01/22/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 
01/21/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 
01/20/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 
01/19/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) 
01/18/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) and 16.9 oz. bottle of water
01/17/21 - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
01/16/21 - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger) and 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Buc-ee's (twice)
01/15/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew and 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Circle K - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) and 16.9 oz. of water

01/14/21 - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Circle K  - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger)  

01/13/21 - Nothing  - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) and 16.9 oz. of water
01/12/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 44 oz. unsweet tea (large Whataburger) and 16.9 oz. of water
01/11/21 - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger) and 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew - 16.9 oz. of water (twice)
01/10/21 - 24 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew and 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger) - 16.9 oz. of water

01/09/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice) and 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger)

01/08/21 - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
01/07/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew and 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Circle K
01/06/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice)
01/05/21 - Nothing
01/04/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew and 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Circle K
01/03/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew and 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Circle K
01/02/21 - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Buc-ee's in Madisonville and 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew
01/01/21 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice)

12/31/20 - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger; twice)
12/30/20 - 25 oz. of sweet tea (approximately half of large Whataburger cup) and 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/29/20 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew 
12/28/20 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice)
12/27/20 - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger)
12/26/20 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew
12/25/20 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice)

12/24/20 - 44 oz. of Diet Coke (large Whataburger; every other day that's unsweetened tea)
12/22/20 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice)
12/21/20 - 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (twice)
12/20/20 - 20 oz. cup of Mountain Dew at Buc-ee's in Temple

12/19/20 - 32 oz. of Mountain Dew (two 16 oz. cups at Freddy's)
12/18/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/17/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/16/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/15/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew (twice)
12/14/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/13/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew (twice)

12/12/20 - 12 oz. of Dr. Pepper and 20 oz. of Mountain Dew

12/11/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/10/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew (medium cup at Bucee's) and 20 oz. of Diet Coke (post run in Waco)
12/09/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/08/20 - No soda.
12/07/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew (twice)
12/06/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew (no sugar)

Better compared to the past, coupled with a 30-minute or more workout nine of the last 10 days.

12/05/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/04/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/03/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/02/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
12/01/20 - 44 oz. of Sweet Tea (Whataburger; totally inadvertent)
11/30/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
11/29/20 - No soda.
11/28/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
11/27/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew (twice)
11/26/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
11/25/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
11/24/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew (twice)

11/23/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
11/22/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
11/21/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew (twice)
11/20/20 - 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
11/19/20 - No soda.
11/18/20 - No soda.
11/17/20 - No soda.
11/16/20 - No soda.

08/20/20 - 11/15/20 - Totally failed at soda intake.

08/19/20 - 33.8 oz. of water (two bottls), 28 oz. of Diet Coke (7-Eleven), 44 oz. of Diet Coke (Whataburger)
08/18/20 - 63.8 oz. of water (30 oz. Whataburger and two bottles), 28 oz. of Diet Coke (7-Eleven)
08/17/20 - 46.9 oz. of water (30 oz. Whataburger and one bottle), 28 oz. of Diet Coke (7-Eleven)
08/16/20 - 30 oz. of water (Whataburger cup), 20 oz. bottle of Diet Coke

08/14/20 - 46.9 oz. of water (30 oz. Whataburger and one bottle), 32 oz. of Diet Coke (Speedy Stop) and 32 oz. of Mountain Dew (Circle K cup)
08/13/20 - 76.9 oz. of water (Two 30 oz. Whataburger and one bottle) and 20 oz. of Diet Coke
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08/06/20 - 63.8 oz. of water (30 oz. Whataburger and two bottles) and 32 oz. of Diet Coke (Circle K cup)
08/05/20 - 63.8 oz. of water (30 oz. Whataburger and two bottles)
08/04/20 - 80.7 oz. of water (30 oz. Whataburger cup) and 32 oz. of Diet Coke (Circle K cup)
08/03/20 - 67.6 oz. of water and 32 oz. of Diet Coke (Circle K cup)
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07/30/20 - 63.8 oz. of water (1L plus 30 oz. Whataburger cup) and 28 oz. of Diet Coke (7-Eleven cup)
07/29/20 - 63.8 oz. of water (1L plus 30 oz. Whataburger cup) and 28 oz. of Diet Coke (7-Eleven cup)
07/28/20 - 80.7 oz. of water (30 oz. Whataburger cup) and 28 oz. of Diet Coke (7-Eleven cup)
07/27/20 - 67.6 oz. of water and 20 oz. of Diet Coke
07/26/20 - 61.8 oz. of water (Whataburger and two bottles)
07/25/20 - 61.8 oz. of water (Whataburger and two bottles)
07/24/20 - 81.6 oz. of water, 20 oz. of Diet Coke and 20 oz. of Mountain Dew
07/23/20 - 50.7 oz. of water
07/22/20 - 67.6 oz. of water and no soda
07/21/20 - 59.7 oz. of water and 20 oz. of Diet Coke
07/20/20 - 50.7 oz. of water and no soda
07/19/20 - 36.9 oz. of water and 20 oz. of Diet Coke (weaning off)

Miles and Miles - 04/25/21 to 05/24/21

Tracking my efforts in 2021:

April 25 - May 24 - 62.416 miles - 84.691 miles walking - 33.855 miles walking (Apple Health) - 108.5 miles cycling - 2,442 meters rowing
April 25 (Sunday) - 5 miles at Cypress 10 and 3.1 miles at Run With The Lions 5K, Bellville, TX - 1.8 miles walking (Apple Health)
April 26 (Monday) - 4 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (1:03:24) - 0.5 miles walking (Apple Health)
April 27 (Tuesday) - 4.176 miles at Knox Junior High - 0.38 miles walking (Apple Health)
April 28 (Wednesday) - 1 mile walking in Hannover Forest subdivision (15:52.60) - 20 miles cycling on Air Assault bike (1:00:15) - 0.8 miles walking (Apple Health)
April 29 (Thursday) - 10 miles cycling on Air Assault bike (30:07) - 0.67 miles walking (Apple Health)
April 30 (Friday) - 3.08 miles in Springwoods Village - 1.02 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 1 (Saturday) - 5.02 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (1:16:11.07) - 0.68 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 2 (Sunday) - 13.1 miles in the Vintage Park Half Marathon (2:39:32) - 1.4 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 3 (Monday) - 4 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (1:03:06.35) - 2.1 miles walking (Apple Health)

May 4 (Tuesday) - 4.176 miles walking at Knox Junior High (1:03:42) - 0.73 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 5 (Wednesday) - 3 miles walking in Hannover Forest subdivision (46:42.85) - 0.7 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 6 (Thursday) - 2 miles walking in Hannover Forest subdivision (30:41.22) - 2.13 miles walking in Springwoods Village (33:43) - 0.67 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 7 (Friday) - 3 miles in Hannover Forest subdivision (30:27.15) - 0.97 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 8 (Saturday) - 3.1 miles at Texas Crab Festival 5K (30:00.23) - 2.6 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 9 (Sunday) - 5 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (1:16:13.64) - 10 miles cycling on Air Assault bike (29:21) - 0.5 miles walking (Apple Health)

May 10 (Monday) - 4 miles with Waverly along The Woodlands Waterway (42:49.02) - 0.52 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 11 (Tuesday) - 4.21 miles at Knox Junior High (43:08.08) - 0.8 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 12 (Wednesday) - 5.205 miles walking at Knox Junior High (1:20:02.91) - 1.495 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 13 (Thursday) - 4.57 miles along The Woodlands Waterway (48:06) - 0.33 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 14 (Friday) - 4 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (1:00:16) - 1,091 meters rowing (6:00) - 10 miles cycling on Air Assault bike (29:45) - 2 miles walking in Hannover Forest subdivision (30:26.91) - 0.4 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 15 (Saturday) - 4.4 miles walking on the Spring Creek Greenway Trail (1:05:04) - 10.4 miles cycling on Air Assault bike (31:02) - 1,351 meters rowing (7:00) - 3.3 miles walking in Springwoods Village (51:19) - 1 mile walking (Apple Health)

May 16 (Sunday) - 4 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (1:00:26.14) - 11 miles cycling on Air Assault bike (32:05) - 1.7 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 17 (Monday) - 4 miles along The Woodlands Waterway (42:49.44) - 8.5 miles cycling on Air Assault bike (23:36) - 2.93 miles walking in Hannover Forest subdivision (45:22) - 0.47 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 18 (Tuesday) - 8.2 miles cycling on Air Assault bike (24:05) - 0.85 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 19 (Wednesday) - 8 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (59:20.30 and 1:00:19.71) - 2.1 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 20 (Thursday) - 3.98 miles on The Woodlands Waterway parkrun course (31:07) and Waterway/Timberloch - 4 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (59:57.98) - 2 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 21 (Friday) - 4 miles along The Woodlands Waterway (41:48.09) - 4 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (1:01:10.33) - 1.2 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 22 (Saturday) - 3.1 miles in the Mindy Moses 5K Memorial Fun Run in Bellville (31:18.13) - 10.2 miles cycling on Air Assault bike (30:11) - 2.1 miles walking (Apple Health)

May 23 (Sunday) - 8.53 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (2:09:03.03) - 10.2 miles cycling on Air Assault bike (30:13) - 2.47 miles walking (Apple Health)
May 24 (Monday) - 4 miles walking along The Woodlands Waterway (59:55.04) - 0.9 miles walking (Apple Health)

No Conscious; May 21, 2021

I think the thing that bothers me the most of people is that they have no conscious whatsoever.

It is either all about them or that they don't want to rock the boat and do the right thing.

Obviously, I chose poorly in assessing the character of one individual - so when the chips were put on the table, they took off running with them all.

But to be betrayed by those that were supposedly closest to you and knew that you were hurting from what was happening, that's what is turning out to be the more bitter pill to swallow.

I'm grateful for a daughter that didn't fail to act when she saw something that seem to appear to be right.

I'm glad that she had the courage and didn't just ignore things like others did.

Tap Out Ten; May 16, 2021

One thing I know this evening is there was a time in my life that I asked God to come into my life and save my soul.

So even if the worst of anything would happen, I know where I will spend eternity.

Doesn’t give me free rein to sin, which, of course, I struggle with at times, but it means that I can go to God and ask for forgiveness of my sins as I become aware of them.

I just pray that those out there who despise me will come to the same realization in their life and that is a personal relationship with Jesus Christ.

Doesn’t mean that their life will be free of strife or trouble, but rather that they have a new source to draw upon as they go through their life daily.

I’m obviously going through some tough times right now dealing with an individual who has treated me wrong.

I’m working through the process of forgiving that individual even though I don’t ever expect a full apology to what they willfully did.

How do I know that they know that they did something?  Their statement from the second week of March where they said “I think I got in trouble in.”  Again they knew.

Why not just apologize fully?

Why not even today - with them knowing that they’re likely have harmed somebody - can’t they say I apologize and work in a new direction.  

A friend in the community shared two years ago that a person in that situation has no conscience.

I feel deeply sorry for them, and if that’s the case and I hope that they would seek help before they harm anybody else.

Coping Memes; May 13, 2021

 "If I ever stopped talking to you and removed you from my life, I hope you understand how hard that was for me.  I have a bad habit of holding onto the good in people, no matter how bad they're for me or treat me.  So, if you have been removed, it's because you pushed me past my limits."

And the individual thinks I've been on again, off again.  Why?  Because I've forgiven them and tried giving them multiple second chances and they're no more closer to being a friend than they were before.

"Your relationship with a narcissist didn't fail by chance, it failed by design.  Narcissists don't want a happy relationship.  They want a relationship that makes them feel powerful, superior but also wronged by their inferiors."

I believe this.  I think that my praise of them at times was like a drug or narcotic almost.  And when I tried to push to make it like any other friendship that I have and asked them for time, they're too good to meet and break bread with me.

"The problem with being abused by a narcissist is how charming they appear to everyone else.  No one can truly believe that someone like that is an abuser.  They make it seem like you're lying.  They play everyone like a puppet on strings.  To everyone else, you're 'overreacting' but the narcissist knows what they're doing.  They know that they're making you look bad and they enjoy it."

Which if the latter is really truly, it is really sick.

"Trying to look for the good in clearly toxic people is probably a trauma response."

You want to believe that there's no way that they can allow it to go on one day longer, but they do.

"Once you see the true character of the narcissist you can't unsee it. Everything they say and do is from an acting perspective.  They live in a land of make believe and if you don't take your script and act your part in their twisted drama, you will see the most vile movie director to ever walk the planet.  You are not a person to them.  You are only a two bit-actor that has been blessed to snag a role in their horror show.  If you don't play the part you will be replaced."

Please replace me.  Forever.  

Three weeks ago, I finally saw their hate. And that's OK.

It isn't on me.  It is on them.  And they know it.

"Don't get it twisted.  Narcissists understand exactly what you're saying.  It's not a communication problem, it is a "I don't want to take accountability for my actions problem" so I play stupid."

Their response, "I think where I got "into trouble"..."  They knew.  

They just don't have the character nor class to apologize.

"A narcissist will provoke you to get a reaction out of you so that they can blame it all on you."

My only reactions have been on these posts.  Blame me for these, but this is just documentation.

Daily Reading Efforts - January 2021

01/31/2021 - October 13, 1517:  Martin Luther And The Day That Changed The World (Pages 1-12)

01/30/2021 - Nothing
01/29/2021 - Nothing
01/28/2021 - Nothing
01/27/2021 - Heroes of The Heisman Trophy (Pages 78-110); Abe Lemons:  Court Magician (Pages 42-56)
01/26/2021 - Nothing
01/25/2021 - Abe Lemons:  Court Magician (Pages 19-41)
01/24/2021 - Bart Giamatti:  A Profile (7-51); Run The World (Pages 1-57); Abe Lemons:  Court Magician (Pages 7-18)
01/23/2021 - Bart Giamatti:  A Profile (Pages ix-xvi and 1-6)
01/22/2021 - The Night Casey Was Born:  The True Story Behind the Great American Ballad "Casey at the Bat" (Pages 166-End); Heroes of The Heisman Trophy (Pages 48-77); A Planet Of Viruses, Second Edition (Pages 71-End)
01/21/2021 - The Night Casey Was Born:  The True Story Behind the Great American Ballad "Casey at the Bat" (Pages 104-165)
01/20/2021 - The Night Casey Was Born:  The True Story Behind the Great American Ballad "Casey at the Bat" (Pages 54-103)
01/19/2021 - The Night Casey Was Born:  The True Story Behind the Great American Ballad "Casey at the Bat" (Pages 46-53)
01/18/2021 - A Planet Of Viruses, Second Edition (Pages 37-70); The Night Casey Was Born:  The True Story Behind the Great American Ballad "Casey at the Bat" (Pages 1-45)
01/17/2021 - A Spirit Of Perseverance (Pages 37-45)
01/16/2021 - No Such Thing As Can't (Pages 81-220)
01/15/2021 - No Such Thing As Can't (Pages 33-80)

01/14/2021 - Hillbilly Elegy (Pages 223-273)
01/13/2021 - Hillbilly Elegy (Pages 190-222); A Spirit Of Perseverance (Pages 1-36)
01/12/2021 - No Such Thing As Can't (Pages 1-32)
01/11/2021 - Between The White Lines:  Coach W.T. Johnston's Determined Pursuit of Ultimate Victory (Pages 110-181)
01/10/2021 - Between The White Lines:  Coach W.T. Johnston's Determined Pursuit of Ultimate Victory (Pages 33-109)
01/09/2021 - Nothing
01/08/2021 - Between The White Lines:  Coach W.T. Johnston's Determined Pursuit of Ultimate Victory (Pages 13-32)
01/07/2021 - Where Dreams Die Hard:  A Small American Town And Its Six-Man Football Team (Pages 182-201); Between The White Lines:  Coach W.T. Johnston's Determined Pursuit of Ultimate Victory (Pages 8-12)
01/06/2021 - Where Dreams Die Hard:  A Small American Town And Its Six-Man Football Team (Pages 60-181)
01/05/2021 - Where Dreams Die Hard:  A Small American Town And Its Six-Man Football Team (Pages 8-59)

01/04/2021 - Where Dreams Die Hard:  A Small American Town And Its Six-Man Football Team (Pages xi-xvii, 1-7); A Planet Of Viruses, Second Edition (Pages ix-x, 1-36)
01/03/2021 - Hillbilly Elegy (Pages 178-189)
01/02/2021 - Hillbilly Elegy (Pages 147-177)
01/01/2021 - Between The White Lines:  Coach W.T. Johnston's Determined Pursuit of Ultimate Victory (Pages 1-7)
12/31/2020 - Nothing
12/30/2020 - Hillbilly Elegy (Pages 91-146); Undefeated, Untied, Unscored Upon:  The Story of Pennsylvania's 1957 Cass Township Football Team (Pages 1-41)
12/29/2020 - Hillbilly Elegy (Pages 30-90)
12/28/2020 - Hillbilly Elegy (Pages 1-29)

Daily Reading Efforts - February 2021

02/28/2021 - Nothing

02/27/2021 - Nothing
02/26/2021 - Your Legacy:  The Greatest Gift (Pages 45-88)
02/25/2021 - Happy First: How to Win Life in the Moment at Home, at Work, at the Gym, and Even in the Kitchen (Pages 79-99)
02/24/2021 - In the Middle of the Mess:  Strength For This Beautiful, Broken Life (Pages xi-xvii, 7-37)
02/23/2021 - Happy First: How to Win Life in the Moment at Home, at Work, at the Gym, and Even in the Kitchen (Pages 59-78)
02/22/2021 - The Seven Deadly Friendships:  How To Heal When Painful Relationships Eat Away At Your Joy (Pages 192-201); In the Middle of the Mess:  Strength For This Beautiful, Broken Life (Pages xi-xvii, 1-6)
02/21/2021 - Nothing
02/20/2021 - Nothing
02/19/2021 - Nothing
02/18/2021 - Happy First: How to Win Life in the Moment at Home, at Work, at the Gym, and Even in the Kitchen (Pages 34-58)
02/17/2021 - The Seven Deadly Friendships:  How To Heal When Painful Relationships Eat Away At Your Joy (Pages 140-191)
02/16/2021 - Nothing
02/15/2021 - The Seven Deadly Friendships:  How To Heal When Painful Relationships Eat Away At Your Joy (Pages 106-140)
02/14/2021 - My Life (Pages 38-90); Your Legacy:  The Greatest Gift (Pages 1-44, Preface)
02/13/2021 - Wrestling For My Life:  The Legend, The Reality, And The Faith Of A WWE Superstar (Pages 71-161)
02/12/2021 - Nothing
02/11/2021 - Wrestling For My Life:  The Legend, The Reality, And The Faith Of A WWE Superstar (Pages 42-70)
02/10/2021 - Happy First: How to Win Life in the Moment at Home, at Work, at the Gym, and Even in the Kitchen (Pages 8-33)
02/09/2021 - Happy First: How to Win Life in the Moment at Home, at Work, at the Gym, and Even in the Kitchen (Pages 1-7)
02/08/2021 - Wrestling For My Life:  The Legend, The Reality, And The Faith Of A WWE Superstar (Pages 5-41)
02/07/2021 - The Seven Deadly Friendships:  How To Heal When Painful Relationships Eat Away At Your Joy (Pages 96-105)
02/06/2021 - The Seven Deadly Friendships:  How To Heal When Painful Relationships Eat Away At Your Joy (Pages 43-95)
02/05/2021 - Nothing
02/04/2021 - The Case For Christmas:  A Journalist Investigates the Identity of the Child in the Manger (Pages 86-100); The Seven Deadly Friendships:  How To Heal When Painful Relationships Eat Away At Your Joy (Pages 11-42); Abe Lemons:  Court Magician (Pages 57-77)
02/03/2021 - The Case For Christmas:  A Journalist Investigates the Identity of the Child in the Manger (Pages 59-85)
02/02/2021 - The Case For Christmas:  A Journalist Investigates the Identity of the Child in the Manger (Pages 7-58)
02/01/2021 - October 13, 1517:  Martin Luther And The Day That Changed The World (Pages 13 - 114); My Life (Pages 7-37)

Daily Reading Efforts -- March 2021

03/30/2021 - Nothing

03/29/2021 - The Legend of Bear Bryant (Pages 166-218)
03/28/2021 - The Legend of Bear Bryant (Pages 129-165)
03/27/2021 - Run The World (Pages 215-270); The Legend of Bear Bryant (Pages 90-128)
03/26/2021 - Nothing
03/25/2021 - Run The World (Pages 187-214)
03/24/2021 - Run The World (Pages 163-186)
03/23/2021 - Run The World (Pages 128-162)
03/22/2021 - Nothing
03/21/2021 - Run The World (Pages 125-127)
03/20/2021 - Nothing
03/19/2021 - Run The World (Pages 92-124)
03/18/2021 - Run The World (Pages 58-91)
03/17/2021 - The Legend of Bear Bryant (Pages 64-89)
03/16/2021 - Nothing
03/15/2021 - Dear Jay, Love Dad:  Bud Wilkinson's Letters To His Son (Pages 123-188)
03/14/2021 - The Legend of Bear Bryant (Pages 12-63)
03/13/2021 - The Legend of Bear Bryant (Pages 1-11)
03/12/2021 - Twelfth Man In The Huddle (Pages 42-50); Dear Jay, Love Dad:  Bud Wilkinson's Letters To His Son (Pages 91-122)
03/11/2021 - Fresh Out Of Amazing:  Opening Your Heart To God's Unexpected Invitation (Pages 28-55)
03/10/2021 - God's Hostage:  A True Story Of Persecution, Imprisonment, And Perseverance (Pages 200-249); Fresh Out Of Amazing:  Opening Your Heart To God's Unexpected Invitation (Pages 1-27)
03/09/2021 - Putting An X Through Anxiety:  Breaking Free from the Grip of Worry and Stress (Pages 1-60)

03/08/2021 - Nothing
03/07/2021 - Nothing
03/06/2021 - Nothing
03/05/2021 - Nothing
03/04/2021 - God's Hostage:  A True Story Of Persecution, Imprisonment, And Perseverance (Pages 168-199)
03/03/2021 - God's Hostage:  A True Story Of Persecution, Imprisonment, And Perseverance (Pages 135-167)
03/02/2021 - God's Hostage:  A True Story Of Persecution, Imprisonment, And Perseverance (Pages 10-134)
03/01/2021 - Happy First: How to Win Life in the Moment at Home, at Work, at the Gym, and Even in the Kitchen (Pages 100-136)

Daily Reading Efforts - April 2021

04/30/2021 - Nothing

04/29/2021 - What I Talk About When I Talk About Running (Pages 89-139)
04/28/2021 - What I Talk About When I Talk About Running (Pages 54-88); The Gift of Forgiveness:  Inspiring Stories from Those Who Have Overcome the  Unforgivable (Pages 1-22); A Most Beautiful Thing:  The True Story of America's First All-Black High School Rowing Team (Pages 1-26)

04/27/2021 - Nothing

04/26/2021 - What I Talk About When I Talk About Running (Pages 28-53)
04/24-25/2021 - Nothing
04/23/2021 - What I Talk About When I Talk About Running (Pages v-vii, 3-27)
04/22/2021 - Your Legacy:  The Greatest Gift (Pages 168-178); Didn't See That Coming:  Putting Life Back Together When Your World Falls Apart (Pages 1-46)

04/17-21/2021 - Nothing
04/16/2021 - Your Legacy:  The Greatest Gift (Pages 149-167)

04/15/2021 - Hope In The Dark:  Believing God is Good When Life is Not (Pages 111-158)
04/14/2021 - Hope In The Dark:  Believing God is Good When Life is Not (Pages 94-110)
04/13/2021 - Hope In The Dark:  Believing God is Good When Life is Not (Pages 73-93)

04/10-12/2021 - Nothing

04/09/2021 - Hope In The Dark:  Believing God is Good When Life is Not (Pages 9-72)
04/08/2021 - Your Legacy:  The Greatest Gift (Pages 89-148)
04/06-07/2021 - Nothing
04/05/2021 - Abe Lemons:  Court Magician (Pages 78-99)
04/04/2021 - Heroes of The Heisman Trophy (Pages 174-190)`
04/03/2021 - Heroes of The Heisman Trophy (Pages 78-173); The Cost:  My Life On A Terrorist Hit List (Pages 11-23); Home Run:  The Best Writing About Baseball's Most Exciting Moment (Pages XIII-XX, 1-15)
04/02/2021 - The Legend of Bear Bryant (Pages 219-241)
04/01/2021 - Nothing

Forgiveness; May 6, 2021

A friend wrote to me last Saturday, "You did not try to extend grace and undeserved forgiveness, you did extend grace and forgiveness!  It was not accepted but you have no control over that and to be honest, based on their personality we should not be surprised.  However, it is still surprising to people like you and me because we can not fathom acting that way.  

"I am glad you have a book on forgiveness.  I have read and studied forgiveness a lot.  The most important thing that I have learned is that forgiveness is for you and not for them.  Most of the time it is undeserved and most importantly it is a command from God to forgive others.  Forgiveness will also help get you out of the cloud and on your way to freedom."

The book that I recently purchased on forgiveness is "The Gift of Forgiveness:  Inspiring Stories from Those Who Have Overcome the Unforgivable".

I just finished chapter three about Sarah Klein, who had been abused the longest by Michigan State gymnastics trainer Larry Nassar.  The chapter, however, started with a quote from a Bryant McGill. 

It read, "Forgiveness has nothing whatsoever to do with how wrong someone else was; no matter how evil, cruel, narcissistic, or unrepentant they are.  When you forgive a person, you break the ties with their ill deeds that keep you in anguish."

I've been going through that currently.  

It will still take awhile, but I'm in a much, much better place than a couple of weeks ago.

Klein herself stated on page 30 of the book, the following:

"Just because you forgive somebody doesn't mean you have to reconcile with them and let them back in your world.  You can forgive them and still not be okay with them.  And that distinction helps me forgive, too."

And that's exactly where I'm moving through these days.

I told a different friend last night that it was hard for me to have them run right by me twice during a race last month and not cheer for them or - what I didn't share with them - to take the time on Sunday to wish them Happy Mother's Day.

It's hard, but necessary.